Haphazard Records

Brink of Exhaustion

Remember no evil. No. I don't wish to look back to this blog one day and remember what the fuck happened. No.
I'm not naming, I'm not citing, I will adopt a brain that has selective memory.
This is a stressful week. I have 2 presentations and a MATHS TEST. The maths test should say it all.

I think I've finally understood what it really means to be living on the edge. I think it's exactly what's happening to me. I just need a very slight prod and I might lose it. I told you, I'm balancing or at least trying my best to. I might jump... But I don't wish to waste my life so that the school can gain a ranking point. (I believe that schools are stressful so that students will suicide. The more they kill, the higher their ranking.)
It's really small just in case some Singapore Education System fanatic reads my blog and tells the government then leads to this undesirable sequence of events. As if life wasn't sad enough.

Poor shar... having to live through her last year in PL with immatured brats. Sad none of us are there to lend an immediate ear whenever someone starts bullshitting and making her life miserable. Backstabbing hurts. In every sense of the word. Literal or not. Sucks to have someone who's supposedly your friend to start bitching about you or betraying your feelings. If there was someone like that in my JC class, I might not be able to take the blow very well now. Especially since most of my energy is used on trying to do well academically in JC.

Ade started school on 7th of April. Rather retarded first day for her. Seeing that only 3 people in her class are girls. Hehe. That should sum up how retarded it is. Yeaahhh....
Joyce that idiot is still slacking. I try my best not to remember she's still asleep when I'm desperately trying to pay attention to my lecturers in the morning.
I mean I'm so sleepy, that my phone alarm is at top volume, it rings for a good one and a half minute and I don't hear it AT ALL.

IF my bed was alive, I'll punch it. Cause it's pissing me off.

Bed: Ello Janice! I'm cool and comfy... come sleep!
Me: Crap GP Oral Presentation...Maths test...Chinese homework!!!!
Bed: Soft and cool....
Me: -starts getting tempted-
Bed: Jaaaannniiiiccccceeee....
Diary: GP ORAL PRESENTATION! MATHS TEST!!!!
Me: Damn it....

Oh now I know why people love to hear suicidal/emo songs. I'm in the mood for one now. I don't think I have energy to laugh for comedies. I THINK...

Assembly today was lame. I think it's an after-effect of 8hrs of school. Clara and I were playing bingo. Which I totally owned her. Also Tic-Tac-Toe. Which I also won. I'm excelling in the wrong things. I mean why can't I do tremendously well for Maths and Chinese or for any subject. My brain is so not adapting to Singapore's education system even after 11 years.

CRAP THIS.

posted by Cineja @ 7:38 PM